If we were having coffee together this morning, I’d order you an extra shot of espresso to give you a fighting chance of making it through my unloading.
I’d tell you about how it’s been a tough week for me. Nothing bad has happened, but I overcommitted myself with a few side projects that left me feeling worn down and ragged. The worst of it was reflected in the motherhood department. Though I don’t try to hold myself to any super standard, I do focus on always trying to lead with patience and kindness. I’ve mentioned I’m a rainbows and butterflies gal, right? But in all honesty, I believe strongly in those principles and fell short this week, which I have no doubt that is what contributed to more meltdowns than normal. Meltdowns lead to frustration and exhaustion for all and then guilt follows. It’s an ugly cycle.
If we were having coffee I’d tell you that I am working on using the word no. Not to everything, but I’m learning to be more selective in making sure what I say yes to aligns with my priorities and is enhancing my life, not adding unnecessary stress to it.
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that I booked a place for Hailey 3rd birthday party! I was unsure if we’d have a party, but since she fully understands the concept of it this year, I decided we could keep it small and I really look forward to seeing the joy in her face. I was going to have it here, but we will have some work being done on the house in mid-September, so it was out of the question.
If we were having coffee I’d rephrase what I meant when I said ‘two kids are easier than one.’ Because that’s a lie. I think what I meant is that the second time around, the baby phase is SO much easier. Seriously, Kaitlyn is a breeze, all things considered. But juggling two while trying to figure out nap schedules, play time, meals, etc is not a piece of cake. There are many times each day I wonder how a mom of three or more does anything. Hats of to you mommas!
If we were having coffee I’d tell you about how yesterday I told myself to go jump in a lake. And I did. For about 20 minutes while both girls were napping and it totally turned my day around. Not sure if it was the cool water or break in routine, but man, I need to do that more often! Koda enjoyed it too.
If we were having coffee I’d tell you we are thisclose to having Kaitlyn sleep all the way through the night. She’s going to bed by 7:30pm and made it to 4:00am this morning. Then I’d throw confetti up in the air and do a jig.
If we were having coffee, it would be obvious to you that mommyhood is consuming me right now and self-care has taken a back seat. I need a haircut, a couple doctor appointments, more exercise sessions than once or maybe twice a week and I need more than one pair of (still) maternity shorts to wear. It may sound selfish to some, but taking care of me makes it easier to take care of everyone else. So I’m going to work on it. A friend is letting me borrow her BOB Duallie while she is at the beach for the week and I am excited to see how I can work that into our routine.
If we were having coffee I’d hope that you would give me a BIG hug and then shake me hard and say SNAP OUT OF IT. IT’S FRIDAY! And I would listen, smile, hug you back and thank you for listening. My frustrations may seem like nothing to you, but we all have our weeks where life seems a bit harder than usual and having a friend to lean on can make all the difference.
I’m off to lay low, recharge and enjoy some family time. I hope your weekend is full of just what you need too!
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